Friday, February 19, 2010 - :

I think i should start thinking about this problem again. :( Yesterday on my way to B's house, was talking about boyfriends tgt with Rahrah, Hazel & Steph. They came and ask me if our boyfriends introduced us to their friends. Come to think about it, he didnt. i know the reason why he didnt do that. But still.. :( i used to envy people who hold hands and does lovey dovey stuff in public, cos' we wont do it in public in the past. However, as compared to now, its a totally different story. Esp when he changed his relationship status, I'm pretty contented and elated with that. i guessed i'm just someone with constant high expectations. I never get satisfied. Then now, i see people who can go out with their boyfriend friends together with their boyf and stuff like that, i start to envy at it again. It has been 2 years and 2 months now, pretty long period of time and yet, i still need to remain low profile. I've been telling myself to last till 19 yrs old, since he stated that age. When i'm 19yrs old, i'll be more recognized. Coming to think about it, he didnt promise me neither did he say he'll really make me more recognized in a way. But still.. i will choose to wait. Keep waiting and waiting and waiting..
Foolish it seems but.. i just cant give it up. Not now, not later, not ever.


joems blogged at 7:56 AM


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